closed my eyes "a poem of my own"

I closed my eyes that night
Tried to open them again
I saw that wonderful sight
I thought I was gone insane

How can I open my eyes?
When I see what I'm seeing?
This is my lost paradise
This is where I love being

That's what I hoped for in my heart
To be the one you love
Care about and never leave apart
And I would never get enough

I love the way you stared at me
Embarrassed but wanting to be with me
Walking together laughing happily
A flower in my hand and more next to me

I opened my eyes to discover this
I'm in bed sleeping alone
And everything I see and feel is
A dream interrupted by the phone

I curse myself day and night
Cause all I get is dreams
Remain in head, never see the light
And means different than it seems

Had Enough "poem of my own"

I can see something
Didn’t wanted to see
It revealed me everything
From whom you might be
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You’re a bomb that might explode
In anytime or minute
You may find this odd
But I'm pushed to my limits
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Where I can see no body in front of me
Even the one I love
It's time I leave people and think of me
That’s all I'm thinking of
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I'm tired of being hurt
I'm tired of being burned
It's like everyone wants to flirt
So it's my face I have turned
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I must keep my eyes towards my goals
I must achieve my lost dreams
I'm not to be the one that falls
I'm not to be the one that screams
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Even though I like you
But I don’t care if you do
I'm not gonna go towards you
For it's the best thing to do
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I'm not to be the one who suffers
NO baby! It's gonna be you
I don’t wanna have one more lover
Cause it doesn't but makes me blue
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I'm not harsh, I'm not rude
Don’t blame me from saying this
Just had enough, and not in the mood
Cause it's my safety i really miss

The Light I Neglected (poem of my own)

I don’t feel secured…
No hands to protect me…
And I can't be cured…
Everyone neglects me…

I didn’t know that before…
I looked for my lover…
But there is nothing hidden any more…
I'm only me…with no other…

Now I know I'm just nothin…
I'm a peace of trash in this life…
Which was born to be forgotten…
So all I need is a sharp knife…

I talk to myself staring at you…
Will you save me from this life?
Will you hurt me? I have no clue…
Will I be free in four minutes or five?

I thought over and over for long…
And I'm not the one to blame…
Everyone hurts and am not strong…
I'm silent…but I have an inner flame…

And after all that…I remembered One thing…
That was neglected by me…
The one who supports me with everything…
It is the light I strongly need…

You God…for you’re the light of our lives…
I would never want anyone, or anything…
No guns…No cutters…Neither sharp knives…
You’re my faith…my hope…and my everything…

Safety is what I ask you to keep me in…
Between your highness precious hands…
For no one could ever keep me within…
From Humans dirty little hands…

I don’t care if you let me suffer…
You’re my God, and I'll sacrifice for you…
My eyes…my heart…my soul I offer…
Just to be loved by no one but you…

To be an angel of yours is my desire…
Even if I was hated by all…
Let them think I'm ugly, or even a liar…
It's only your name, I shall call…

I know your there listening to me…
Whenever I need to talk or shed tears…
If this is you giving me my destiny…
Then I shall have it with no fears…

Nothing New (a poem of my own)

I can never have hope anymore…
Life is getting darker as I explore…
I eat shit, and life says: You want some more?
So I'm going to stay away closing my windows and my door…

Why is it always the same?
NO it's not something I claim…
I began hating my own name…
Happiness has gone, darkness came…

I'm tired, I'm weak, I'm not strong…
I'm pathetic, I bleed, everything is wrong…
I know now I would never live where I belong…
I see myself as an old lady, while I'm still young…

Why can't love have a place in my heart?
Why do I have to be lonely in life?
I feel like am just a peace of art…
I hate it…I just want to be a loving wife…

Why do I have no one but none?
Why can't you be that one?
I would have loved you like no one has done…
We would be happy together and have fun…

But I can't offer myself for you…
I just have to stay away…
I'm not that girl, and it makes me blue…
Some bird has flown away…

I want nothing…I just want to be with you…
It's not that hard to understand…
But you ignore my heart and it's nothing new…
So I'll just remain in my La La land…

Is It Love? "a poem of my own"

What can I say?
He just took my breath away...
To approach him I need to pray...
Every moment plus night and day...
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When he's there i just want him to stay...
I dance within my feelings and I sway...
Am afraid it's just another game to play...
He treats me like a slave...but I have to obey...
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Without hesitation I just melt...
With just a look from his eyes...
No one could ever know how I felt...
I just randomly realized...
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I don’t know what he does to me
I feel like am hypnotized
Going where he orders me
With the charm of his size
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His shoulders...his face...and the way he stares...
My heart...my soul...and my everything cares...
Could it be love? I'm confused I swear...
I can see something, but I'm not sure it's there...
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Is it love what I see?
Or what could it possibly be?
Is it the way e looks normally?
Or it's something there hidden for me?
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My brain is eaten by confusion...
Thinking of him for too long...
I just need that conclusion...
I want to live where I belong...

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I don’t know why am I still searching!
For I know I will be dead...
I want to find this guy, and I'm working...
Where on his chest I could put my head...
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I really want to take off my tears...
And put the smile on my face...
Will it be you who takes my fears?
Will it be you who wins my race?
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I'm praying for you to be mine...
While I know I'm nothing for you...
Oh please I beg you, just give me a sign...
For I can love NO ONE but you...
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Then you would be my king for ever...
If you let me become your queen...
Looking at someone else? ... I would NEVER...

Cause your the perfectest one I've ever seen..

Yes It's Me "a song of my own"

(solo)

Life is like some parts...
We need to stick together...
We all have a heart...
That loves someone forever...

Just like me...and just like you...

You left and am alone...
Cant be any stronger...
I live on my own...
Cant breath any longer...

This is me...telling you...

(chorus)
I miss your heart...
I miss your soul...
Come back cause it's my hope...

I miss your gaze...
I miss your ways...
Of talking about love...

I miss your eyes...
I miss your smile...
Miss your perfume and size...

I miss your face...
Miss your fingers and your nails...

(solo)
But this is over now...
Someone else wouldn’t cover...
No whats, or whys, or hows...
He was bad but he's my lover...

Yes it's me...loving you...
And this is me...telling you...

(chorus)
I miss you heart...
I miss your soul...
Come back cause it's my hope...

I miss your gaze...
I miss your ways...
Of talking about love...

I miss your eyes...
I miss your smile...
Miss your perfume and your size...

I miss your face...
Miss your fingers and your nails...

Yes it's me...telling you...That this is me...loving you...

Love Birds "a poem of my own"

When two birds are in a cage…
One remains, one engaged…
Love would always be there…
Wishing the others luck in a new page…

I say to you, today in this occasion…
From the deepest point of my heart…
I wish you love, and congratulations…
I love you so much, and I'd never be apart…

Seeing you with your white dress…
A bride you turned to be…
You look like an angel, I confess…
Your so charming as I can see…

Being safe in this journey is all I hope…
Cause you’re the sweetest person I've ever met…
Wish your other half would give you the globe…
Just to see your sweet smile, and never upset…

A Brother Like an Angel (a poem of my own)

Are you a bird that flies in the sky?
Are you a beautiful colored butterfly?
Are you a dream that takes me high?
Without me asking how you do it, and why?

Your sweet words calm me down
When am stressed or depressed
You change my world from black and brown
And turn it to pink so I can rest
You saved me when I was to drown
Without me making any request
You decorated my head with a crown
So I would feel like I'm the best

I don’t want answers so don’t bother
I know you're not just a friend or even a lover
You're more than that, you my brother
You must be my twin…but from another mother

The Light of Friends (a poem of my own)

I can't believe there is a person who can shake me still…
I thought that feelings and emotions in my heart I kill…
But with a word from you I dropped my tears and cried for long…
I discovered it's only ideas in my imagination I fill…
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I can't hide my feeling no more I need to breathe…
You’re the one next to my heart I had to keep beneath…
But when you left I could do nothing but watching you go ahead…
But killing, beating, crying, and screaming is what lied in my head…
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I can't stop blaming myself and feeling the guilt…
Although I never harmed you, but it was our lives I built…
Never thought you would misunderstand one day and leave…
And keep me standing in the cold watching you while I melt…
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But it's ok since I have the whole world beside my heart…
I trust the ones I call friends and I know they would never leave apart…
They are my light when you kept my world as dark as your mind…
And do their best to turn my life from misery to a peace of tart…