The Light I Neglected (poem of my own)

I don’t feel secured…
No hands to protect me…
And I can't be cured…
Everyone neglects me…

I didn’t know that before…
I looked for my lover…
But there is nothing hidden any more…
I'm only me…with no other…

Now I know I'm just nothin…
I'm a peace of trash in this life…
Which was born to be forgotten…
So all I need is a sharp knife…

I talk to myself staring at you…
Will you save me from this life?
Will you hurt me? I have no clue…
Will I be free in four minutes or five?

I thought over and over for long…
And I'm not the one to blame…
Everyone hurts and am not strong…
I'm silent…but I have an inner flame…

And after all that…I remembered One thing…
That was neglected by me…
The one who supports me with everything…
It is the light I strongly need…

You God…for you’re the light of our lives…
I would never want anyone, or anything…
No guns…No cutters…Neither sharp knives…
You’re my faith…my hope…and my everything…

Safety is what I ask you to keep me in…
Between your highness precious hands…
For no one could ever keep me within…
From Humans dirty little hands…

I don’t care if you let me suffer…
You’re my God, and I'll sacrifice for you…
My eyes…my heart…my soul I offer…
Just to be loved by no one but you…

To be an angel of yours is my desire…
Even if I was hated by all…
Let them think I'm ugly, or even a liar…
It's only your name, I shall call…

I know your there listening to me…
Whenever I need to talk or shed tears…
If this is you giving me my destiny…
Then I shall have it with no fears…