The Light I Neglected (poem of my own)

I don’t feel secured…
No hands to protect me…
And I can't be cured…
Everyone neglects me…

I didn’t know that before…
I looked for my lover…
But there is nothing hidden any more…
I'm only me…with no other…

Now I know I'm just nothin…
I'm a peace of trash in this life…
Which was born to be forgotten…
So all I need is a sharp knife…

I talk to myself staring at you…
Will you save me from this life?
Will you hurt me? I have no clue…
Will I be free in four minutes or five?

I thought over and over for long…
And I'm not the one to blame…
Everyone hurts and am not strong…
I'm silent…but I have an inner flame…

And after all that…I remembered One thing…
That was neglected by me…
The one who supports me with everything…
It is the light I strongly need…

You God…for you’re the light of our lives…
I would never want anyone, or anything…
No guns…No cutters…Neither sharp knives…
You’re my faith…my hope…and my everything…

Safety is what I ask you to keep me in…
Between your highness precious hands…
For no one could ever keep me within…
From Humans dirty little hands…

I don’t care if you let me suffer…
You’re my God, and I'll sacrifice for you…
My eyes…my heart…my soul I offer…
Just to be loved by no one but you…

To be an angel of yours is my desire…
Even if I was hated by all…
Let them think I'm ugly, or even a liar…
It's only your name, I shall call…

I know your there listening to me…
Whenever I need to talk or shed tears…
If this is you giving me my destiny…
Then I shall have it with no fears…

Nothing New (a poem of my own)

I can never have hope anymore…
Life is getting darker as I explore…
I eat shit, and life says: You want some more?
So I'm going to stay away closing my windows and my door…

Why is it always the same?
NO it's not something I claim…
I began hating my own name…
Happiness has gone, darkness came…

I'm tired, I'm weak, I'm not strong…
I'm pathetic, I bleed, everything is wrong…
I know now I would never live where I belong…
I see myself as an old lady, while I'm still young…

Why can't love have a place in my heart?
Why do I have to be lonely in life?
I feel like am just a peace of art…
I hate it…I just want to be a loving wife…

Why do I have no one but none?
Why can't you be that one?
I would have loved you like no one has done…
We would be happy together and have fun…

But I can't offer myself for you…
I just have to stay away…
I'm not that girl, and it makes me blue…
Some bird has flown away…

I want nothing…I just want to be with you…
It's not that hard to understand…
But you ignore my heart and it's nothing new…
So I'll just remain in my La La land…

Is It Love? "a poem of my own"

What can I say?
He just took my breath away...
To approach him I need to pray...
Every moment plus night and day...
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When he's there i just want him to stay...
I dance within my feelings and I sway...
Am afraid it's just another game to play...
He treats me like a slave...but I have to obey...
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Without hesitation I just melt...
With just a look from his eyes...
No one could ever know how I felt...
I just randomly realized...
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I don’t know what he does to me
I feel like am hypnotized
Going where he orders me
With the charm of his size
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His shoulders...his face...and the way he stares...
My heart...my soul...and my everything cares...
Could it be love? I'm confused I swear...
I can see something, but I'm not sure it's there...
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Is it love what I see?
Or what could it possibly be?
Is it the way e looks normally?
Or it's something there hidden for me?
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My brain is eaten by confusion...
Thinking of him for too long...
I just need that conclusion...
I want to live where I belong...

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I don’t know why am I still searching!
For I know I will be dead...
I want to find this guy, and I'm working...
Where on his chest I could put my head...
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I really want to take off my tears...
And put the smile on my face...
Will it be you who takes my fears?
Will it be you who wins my race?
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I'm praying for you to be mine...
While I know I'm nothing for you...
Oh please I beg you, just give me a sign...
For I can love NO ONE but you...
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Then you would be my king for ever...
If you let me become your queen...
Looking at someone else? ... I would NEVER...

Cause your the perfectest one I've ever seen..