closed my eyes "a poem of my own"

I closed my eyes that night
Tried to open them again
I saw that wonderful sight
I thought I was gone insane

How can I open my eyes?
When I see what I'm seeing?
This is my lost paradise
This is where I love being

That's what I hoped for in my heart
To be the one you love
Care about and never leave apart
And I would never get enough

I love the way you stared at me
Embarrassed but wanting to be with me
Walking together laughing happily
A flower in my hand and more next to me

I opened my eyes to discover this
I'm in bed sleeping alone
And everything I see and feel is
A dream interrupted by the phone

I curse myself day and night
Cause all I get is dreams
Remain in head, never see the light
And means different than it seems