The Light of Friends (a poem of my own)

I can't believe there is a person who can shake me still…
I thought that feelings and emotions in my heart I kill…
But with a word from you I dropped my tears and cried for long…
I discovered it's only ideas in my imagination I fill…
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I can't hide my feeling no more I need to breathe…
You’re the one next to my heart I had to keep beneath…
But when you left I could do nothing but watching you go ahead…
But killing, beating, crying, and screaming is what lied in my head…
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I can't stop blaming myself and feeling the guilt…
Although I never harmed you, but it was our lives I built…
Never thought you would misunderstand one day and leave…
And keep me standing in the cold watching you while I melt…
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But it's ok since I have the whole world beside my heart…
I trust the ones I call friends and I know they would never leave apart…
They are my light when you kept my world as dark as your mind…
And do their best to turn my life from misery to a peace of tart…